| 摘要: | 本研究旨在探索不同宗教信仰的同志宗教徒之生命經驗與信仰經歷，以瞭解「性傾向」與「社會環境」、「宗教信仰」之間的張力，同時探討性傾向如何在同志的生命歷程中被重新定義，而同志面對身份的衝突與敏感，宗教信仰的力量如何介入與影響。因此本研究邀請「基督教」、「一貫道」兩個宗教信仰的同志為研究參與者，透過半結構式的深入訪談瞭解經驗，研究者再透過敘說分析的方式，分析訪談與改寫成故事文本。
綜合本研究兩位同志宗教徒的出櫃歷程，研究者根據研究問題整理出二個結論：
(1)性傾向認同至出櫃階段：因為異性戀社會的價值觀，使得同志對於多元性別資訊缺乏，並且在性傾向探索歷程產生自我懷疑。異性戀價值觀、關係變化、同志偏見、疾病汙名、家人期待皆是在異性戀社會中出櫃所面臨的挑戰。此外，伴侶家人對同志的態度，可能成為戀愛關係經營的阻礙。然而，網路資源、同志社群、心理諮商都是協助同志吸收LGBT的知識、持續現身的支持，並達到同志身分的自我接納與認同。
(2)宗教信仰在同志宗教徒現身歷程之影響：信仰是同志宗教徒的情緒支持與人生處世的價值觀。但信仰價值觀，讓一貫道同志促進性傾向的認同，卻讓基督教同志感受被否定，也影響其在宗教信仰的投入程度。在宗教團體中，普遍觀察團體對同志視而不見，唯獨婚姻平權修法議題出現或是現身時刻，同志宗教徒才感受到被其他宗教徒指責，也因為與其他宗教徒的差異，帶著雙面具過生活，並產生隔閡。然而，感受到神與佛的愛、信仰的療癒感，理解宗教團體不等同於信仰，讓同志宗教徒重新看待信仰的意義，並且更加堅定自己身為同志宗教徒。
基於研究結果，本研究針對同志宗教徒、同志宗教徒的父母、助人工作者與宗教團體，以及未來研究方面提出建議，希冀對實務與研究領域能帶來幫助。
The purpose of this study is to explore the life experiences and beliefs of homosexual religious believers of different religions, in order to understand the tension between "sexual orientation", "social environment" and "religious belief". We also discusses the sexual orientation how is redefined in the course of homosexual life, and when they face the conflicts and sensitivities of identity, the power of religious belief how intervenes and influences. Therefore, this study invites the homosexuality of "Christianity" and "I-Kuan Tao" as the research participants. Researcher through semi-structured in-depth interviews, then use narrative analysis to analyze the text.
The factors estimate homosexual religious believers to come out include:
(1)the stage of sexual orientation to come out：Because of the heterosexual society and lack of multiple gender information, so homosexuality have self-doubt. Heterosexual values, changes in relationships, homosexual bias, disease stigma, family expectations are all of the challenge in the coming out processes. In addition, partners’ families how to look at homosexuality, may be a hindrance to relationship management. However, internet resources, LGBT community, counseling psychology can become homosexuality to gain LGBT knowledge, continue to come out, and to achieve their identity and self-acceptance.
(2)influence of religious belief: For homosexual religious believers, belief is the emotional support and the values of life. However religious values promote sexual orientation identity with I-Kuan Tao homosexuality, but makes Christian homosexuality feel negative, and also affect her join religious beliefs. Homosexual religious believers feel ignored in the religious groups, except for rights of homosexual marriage or their come out. In that time, they feel accused by other religious believers. Because of the differences with other believers, they choice take a double mask to live, and produce estrangement. However, homosexuality feel the love of God and Buddha, healing of belief, but understanding the religious group is not the same as the belief. They re-view the meaning of belief, and more determined.
Based on these essential themes and discussions, some concrete suggestions were proposed for homosexual religious believers, homosexual parents, counselors, religious groups, and future researchers. |
